The space between
I've been starting my work days with a 10-minute meditation. I keep it pretty simple. I lie on my back, staring at the ceiling or out the window. I count to 4 as I breathe in, hold for 4, breathe out for 4, hold for 4, repeat a few times. And then I just try and feel how I feel, staying with the now, gently leading my mind back to the now over and over again.
Sometimes I wonder if I should be doing some sort of empowerment mantra, or some sort of visualization about how I want to feel. If I do that, though, am I leaving the now and avoiding how I really feel?
So today I kind of put myself in the in between place, aware of how I feel now (irritable, a little tired) and how I want to feel (powerful, energetic, optimistic). I felt tenderness for the struggle and energy in the yearning.
Anyway, I don't have any profound insights about that...just that it was an interesting place to be, and I think I'll go there again.